Phobia in love?

Ada sorang kawan gua ni share 1 benda dengan gua.. Terharu jugak sebab dia sudi cakap dengan gua hal2 personal cm ni.. Ya lah, mana ada dak2 yg teringin nak bercakap dengan gua pasal benda2 melibat kan soal hati ni kan? Tengok muka dah cam rimau.. Anyway,aku olah kan balik lah ikot sesedap rasa aku.. Dah lama dia cerita ni.. So,ni lebih kurang lah yaa.. Cekidaut!

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Have u ever heard of a phobia that a person will try to avoid the person that he/she love or had crush on? I did.. And I got it.. I got the phobia..

I had a crush on a boy.. Like 2 years something? And he was like dunno it ever.. I think so lah.. And not just him,even everybody include my very best friend and I MEAN NOBODY!

But one day I read in a magazine said about the phobia I just mentioned above.. I dun remember what is the exact name for it.. And I was like, it really exist?? Omg! I'm a part of it!

First time I when to collage and I saw him for the first time.. My heart stop beating.. My eyes could see anything else except him.. My tongue became hardly speak.. It happen like a second and I realises..

I came back on the track..in the reality.. :)

The 1st class with him started like ussual and everthing was just being normal.. I was trying so hardly to cover up everthing.. Thank God I manage.. It's not that hard.. I used to face this kind of situation before!

Anyhow, he did spoke to me at the end of the class.. I was like,how beautiful he spoke to me gently and he had a nice perfume! I tried to avoid to look in his eyes.. It is just to sparkle and shining as that made me afraid to look at.. :)

And as time goes by, It's already 2 years since it happen.. But somehow, I still can remember the moment.. Now, he already find someone special that made him feel like how I feel when the first time I saw him.. I'm happy for him.. And the girl beside him..

It is hurting me inside silently,but I'm not going to hate him or his girl.. I'm praying for him and her instead.. So that he will forever breathe in her love.. I'm a pathetic did I? I'm stupid sucks girl... But I feel like,I dun suit him.. So, I just let him find someone that better than me..

But if, I said only IF.. IF he came to me and said he had the same feeling,I'll tell him I got it long time ago.. :)

I LOVE HIM AS THE YEARS KEEP COUNTING AND HE KEEP CHANGING HIS GIRL.. AND EVERYTIME I HOPE, SHE IS THE LAST AND FOREVER.. :) GUD LUCK .....!

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Gua terharu bila ada org macam ni.. How amazed I am.. However,gua qasa kawan gua ni ptot at least try gtau laki tu yg dia suka laki tu.. Apa lah salah nya kan dia terus terang.. Gua yakin, sgt skit hati dia nak face suma ni.. Pendapat gua dis girl is just sgt2 humble.. Xdak self-confidence nak luah kan.. Being rejected is better than keep it in heart.. Percaya lah.. Abaikan quote" perigi carik timba.."

p/s: Find ur true love!